Monday, October 03, 2005

Question # 5

Question # 5 -If I were to take my 10 year old self to lunch,what would I think of me? Do I still have the same passions, opinions and willfulness? Do I still know what I used to know?

I thought back to when I was 10, I was moving from Duluth to Pine City and starting 5th grade in a new school - I was excited because I had never been the "new kid" and I wanted to experience that.
I was about as round as I was tall,I wore the same clothes everyday and never wanted to brush my hair ( some new kid, huh?). But somehow I didn't see that it made me different. Back then I didn't care about looks at all - I made friends with a variety of people - my best friend was a Jehovah's Witness girl named Megan. I remember showing my mom Megan's school picture that she gave to me, my mom made the comment "Yeesh, Megan is pretty homely don't you think?" I had no idea what homely meant and when she explained it to me - I had trouble pointing out things about Megan that were "homely". I guess I never thought about that. I remember thinking about the boys in my class and I pretty much thought they were all cute. I saw something I liked in everyone of them. I only didn't like someone if they were mean to me or to one of my friends.
Yeah that didn't last too long - I went to junior high and high school in Brand Name city - and my family could barely afford to shop at K-mart. Let's just say that Kathy Ireland wasn't one of the "cool" brands.
I believe in 5th grade I wanted to be a model and a fashion designer - from the description above I'm sure you can imagine what a walking contradiction I was.
I guess I wanted to be a model because I was convinced I was going to be Tall and skinny - that I wasn't done growing yet - I was going to be that way when I was grown up. I wanted to be a fashion designer because I liked to draw.

Things are still the same in a few ways - I still love to experience things - things some people would dread - like being the new kid or starting school as an adult.
Im still about as round as I am tall - but I learned how to use my curves to my advantage.
I still have a variety of friends.

I still love to draw although I don't do it as often as I should. I'm pretty sure I'm not going to become a model - not unless I have leg extentions put in and extensive plastic surgery.

As of now I don't care about looks - I barely wear makeup to work - and as long as my clothes match - I'm ok. Of course I dress up and look nice - when it matters.
I think back to high school and see how much it used to matter how I dressed and how my hair looked - I was smaller then than I am now and I remember thinking that I was a complete cow.

I think that if I took my 10 year old self out to lunch - I would think that I was pretty cool - I would wonder what happened to my artistic side though - I still think about it a lot - I have plans to turn the 2nd bedroom into an art room (if Nancy's not coming anytime soon). I would love to spend my weekends in that room - drawing, sewing, crafting and just being creative.

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I would tell myself to forget what "homely" means.
Posted by Katrina :: 11:42 AM :: 1 Chortles

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